Sick, sick and more sick

So I have not been feeling well for the past week or so.  Part of it is the pregnancy, the other part I had a really bad head cold.  The cold is gone, but I still have the baby sickness.  I don't want to complain because it really isn't that bad, at least not as bad as I know some people get sick.  But it is the worse I have felt being pregnant.  I have thrown up a few times, but mostly I just feel sick to my stomach all the time, unless I am sleeping.  Food does not taste good to me at all, but I have to eat or it is worse.  I hate the fact that I can't enjoy eating right now.  I really, really hope it only lasts the first trimester, because I really like to eat.  When I was pg with JR, food tasted so good to me (which is probably why I gained 50lbs), but I loved to it.  I really want to get to that part of pg with this one.  Surely it will come, right?

I am also so exhausted all the time.  I know that too is part of early pg, but it's hard when I have 2 little boys to take care of that don't always let me rest.  But thankfully they are starting to play so well together, that sometimes I am able to lay down while they play with each other and I love that.  It is very cute to watch them play too.

I am sick of winter. I want the spring to be here. Not only will that mean I am in my 2nd trimester but hopefully the cold weather will leave and we can enjoy some warmth for a change.  I really miss the warm weather, I am so done with winter.

BFP!!!!

Still here

I do have say, I'm a little surprised that I haven't deleted this blog yet. I am now 4 days late and have still not tested. Part of the reason is that I do not have a pg test in the house.  I think I might pick one up this afternoon so I can test tmw morning.  I am still in awe that I could possibly get pg this easily, but I really think I am.  Trying to decide if I should just tell Mike that I suspect I am pg, or if I should wait for a positive test.  So excited about the possibility that this is for real.

A secret?

I've started this blog in secret.  It is private and I have told no one that I expect I am expecting.  It is almost silly for me to think it.  I am not even a day late. JR took 5 years to conceive and AJ 9 months, there is no reason for me to believe that I could conceive on the very first try.  But I really feel like I am pregnant.  I am not going to test until next week some time.  Maybe I will delete this blog in the next day or so, when I discover I'm not really pregnant and that it is only wishful thinking, but I really think I am, so we will just wait and see for now.